I am going to watch the Passion tomorrow
Of all the controversy over this movie, I have read the impacts that it had on people and I am looking forward to seeing this movie. I feel that it is going to be a trying experience for me because I have been sheltered all my life, and something this radical may be too much for me. I am not worried about what others will think of me if I change because of this experience, I am more worried about what it will do to me. How will my life change? I am pretty sure that it will change for the better, yet I am still afraid in a way. The gore, the abuse, the story will not touch me nearly as much as the spiritual meaning. Will I be crushed emotionally? Spiritually? I find it funny, actually, that I call myself a Christian. I am actually going to witness the closest thing to the crucifixion that has ever been recreated, and I am afraid? It seems insane and I feel bad about that. What if I am not changed by this movie? Does that mean I am a bad Christian then? I feel that this could be a huge turning point for me in my life. Something monstrous is going to happen, a huge clash of evil and good. Which side will I fight for? For the longest time I have dreamed of myself being a great Christian model(at least when I was younger, now I just hope to turn out all right), now I think i am going down the well-travelled road. Please pray for me, this may be the most trying experience of my life.
God be with us all,
Jay